30.10.06
tt training
basically tt training nowadays at innova sucks big time. for the 3 time in a row, i went and the coach din. it's simply a waste of time. and somemore so late thn start. hate it to the core!!!
life sucks nowadays as well. i dunno why i got myself into this mess. i know she's rite, i din spend as much time as i would have to on the things that i am suppose to be...
9:11 pm
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25.10.06
sleepless night again
it's very torturing. to wan to fall asleep but couldn't. i also dunno why i am bloggin here in the middle of the night but i jus couldn't help it. i jus can't get to slp. spent the last couple of hours thinking of wad i went thru this year. seems pretty eventful. a lot of things happen and i suppose i went thru a lot of stuff and see a lot of different perspective. human's nature is jus so unpredicatable. i am very very very sian of life alr. wad's the point of living?
3:12 am
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10.10.06
SSS
went to SSS(singapore sports sch) for the friendly todae. before we went, my senior and i knew we had no chance of winning at all. partially because we din touch the bat and the ball for almost 6 months. another reason will be that the players up against us are none other than the sss students themselves. though they are only sec 2, they do not have any chance of nt picking up the bat for 6 months i guess. it was a long long wait for my competitive debut after my horrific injury. maybe deep down inside my heart, i had harboured the faintest hope that i might actually beat my man. but i din.
disappointment began to set in. it was horrible, the feeling of defeat. it is actually sth i will nv wan to go thru in my life shld i get the chance to choose. it wasn't jus because of the fact that i lost, but the manner that i lost. i had chances to kill the game off as my opp wasn't that gd. the chances went begging and i was left to hold my head in shame. but credit to my opp who's name is
智明. he kept his cool whn i lost mine and started swearing at the ball. he made full use of my mistakes and was able to win w/o much effort. 3-0 to him was the final score. but i dun think the scoreline really reflected the flow of the game. but that's life i guess. ms ng tok to us abt our pw wr todae. it was very bad i suppose. yea. and she tok to us a lot abt this is onli the beginning and there's lots to come. she oso sae sth like have we tried our very best to do it? and she told us not to live in regret. but how many people in life can go to bed knowing that they have given their best shot at everything they could have done on dat day? i suppose not much.
8:23 pm
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8.10.06
injury-jinxed
damn it man. the ankle is getting frm bad to worse. the swelling has worsen and can hardly walk now. all i hope is to be able to take part in the friendly with SSS on tue.
3:35 pm
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6.10.06
post exams
wed was the final paper. finally it's all over. no matter how badly i have done, it's finally over. actually wanted to go play some football to relax, but the stupid eom got in the way. in the end i ended up goin back to the college 3 times and spend the whole day on the bus.
actually i prepared to retain next year. ppl have warned that jc life's tough and very fast paced. even faster and tougher and rougher than the epl. lol. if i really get retain, i will work hard next year and build on my foundation to make it more solid. but it certainly does not kill off the hope that i hope to promote!!!
finally, ytd i get to celebrate exams-over-day like we usually do-- a game of football on my familar grounds. after handing in my final eom on the eleventh hour, sj and i played some football and basketball to kill time while waiting for jj to complete his. after dat i went back to nh for the 'second half'. i realised some of the sec 4s really did well for their prelims. well done guys. hope u guys build on that success and do well for ur o'levels and pull us back to a higher band.
toking abt soccer ytd, the haze was terrible. it simply sux whn u try to exercise. u get some difficulty breathing if u try too hard. besides that, i hate it whn the defenders simply stick themselves to u and man-mark u. in the end there wasn't a lot of space to run latch onto and i ended tripping over my ankle by someone. that was clearly a foul in my opinion but i wasn't in the mood to argue. the moment i went down with my injured ankle, i feared the worst. immediately, i tot of the time at the camp where i injured it, badly. my mind went blank. all i hope was to be able to get up on my own and walk. i was down for a while and afterwards i managed to pick myself up again. but i couldn't run properly later on and my work rate decreased. i was merely a spectator in the last few games. in the end yz sub me.
maybe i was too arrogrant. i used to score freely in the past at nh and i tot i could do so anytime and anywhere. and besides, i always tot i will be back stronger after my horrific injury. but the truth is that i will always be a shadow of my past. i lacked the fitness and the match sharpness. hopefully, i will be back and be a friction of myself whn i was still a sec sch student.
but anw, thanx dt for understanding my fatigue ytd. i wasn't in the mood to go far jus to eat and thn travel back home.
8:47 pm
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