15.7.06
Questions
lots of questions going thru my head now. most likely because of wad happened ytd. confused and vexed. i dunno why u will suddenly sae such things. dun u think it's a little too late? for weeks we have not spoken a word. and all of a sudden i feel like i was the one who was at fault. how am i supposed to start a conversation whn i know u are always busy either playing ur games with ur 'frends' and or tokin to them? i always tried to stay up late after u went offline. and for wad reason i oso dunno. maybe was still harbouring some thought of speaking to u. but whn u din, i tot we were finished? and thn suddenly u were like saying u cared all along but jus dunno how to show it? and i really dun feel ur 'care'? ok u might sae that i'm sarcastic but i will rather be an asshole and be hatred by everyone than be a hypocrite and pretend nth has happened? wad happened actually i oso dunno. maybe i forgot and issn't that good? it will be stupid to sae tat let's move on and forget everything abt the past cos defintely it is goin to leave a scar no matter how minor it is. u sae u were not exactly happy all these while but frm wad i see it's definetly not the case? u will be sayin that again i assumed, but wad am i supposed to think? u were having so much fun hanging out and enjoying urself, that u most probably forgotten all abt me. that is wad i see. it may not be a long time but i assure u that i was no less being unhappy than u are. or maybe i dunno la. u dun have to be sorry. it's my fault that i dun know how to hide my feelings. whn sth happened, it really did. i dun run away frm it and pretend nth has happen. i face it like a man. jus like the time whn i was kicked out, i admit it. i was a bit dulan at first but i come to accept it in the end and nv bothered u all again. i'm sorry that i made u cry, but whn u sae u dunno wad is goin thru my head, i felt the same way too. i dunno wad is goin thru ur head oso. and i learnt not to ask too many questions in case ppl get sick and tired of them
12:51 pm
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